User Profile

I am whoever I want you to see. I have many different sides and it's doubtful anyone will ever see all of them. This shall be in random order because that's how my mind works.

* I am currently unemployed.
* I am back in school.
* I have two kids, who I fondly call monsters. Really, they are. Cagen (b. 1/11/02) & Aiden (b. 12/15/03)
* I live in the middle of nowhere.. in my mum's house which is otherwise known as hell.
* I've always been a daddy's girl. Though, I am considered by the side of my family to be the black sheep of the family.
* I am half Scottish and half Bohemian.
* My grandma is from Australia and I don't hear her accent anymore. I learned, though, that I do hear her a bit differently and was talking like her. My mum and brother made fun of me one night and ever since then I think about ever single word before I say it so I sound "normal."
* I've just recently become a nonsmoker again and I am very proud of myself. I am not bothered by people who do smoke.

* I like order, but love to create chaos.
* I am impatient when it comes to everything not my kids.
* I am kind and thoughtful.
* I can be vindictive, but try to always take the high road. Sometimes I find that impossible.
* I am a writer. I write only for myself. Getting published has not and probably won't ever be a concern of mine.
* I have practiced Wicca for almost 14 years, but I'm still searching for a particular path that calls to me.
* I feel too much. I can make you feel what I am feeling, but won't. I feel what you feel and am still working on blocking feelings not my own.
* I will look into you and see you for who you are. I tend to look too deep and rarely see anything useful.
* I am one of the most bitter and cynical people you will ever meet. Unless I tell you that, you'll never know it because most people will never see that side of me.
* I used to make plans for the future and then stopped. Now I need to start again and that scares the hell out of me.
* I like maintaining control in just about every aspect of my life. Control is often hard to maintain though.
* While I like being in control, control is not my thing in the bedroom. ;)
* Love fascinates me.
* People fascinate me.
* I don't smile a lot, but that doesn't mean I'm always unhappy.
* I smile a lot when I am nervous or when I like someone.
* I pretend to always be in a half way decent mood (at the very least), but I am not always.
* Apparently I suffer from depression, but that's what medication is for.
* I have not had an easy life. That is okay with me, though. It has made me who I am.
* While I may sometimes say otherwise, I like who I am (for the most part).
* I have been called spazzy before, but I'm fairly certain the guy was out of his mind when he called me that. :)
* I most definitely have my quirks, but they aren't many.
* I rarely regret anything I do.
* I am very unforgiving.
* I never forget.
* I have trust issues like no other.
* I have issues with letting people close to me.
* I have an uncanny knack for putting myself into a foul mood at the drop of a hat. I'm working on that.
* I can (and will if I have to) cut myself off from my emotions. Feeling nothing is the easiest, but I rarely do so.
* I am broken, but strong.
* Stress is not my friend. That's too bad considering there isn't a day that goes by when I'm not stressed.
* I don't consider many people to be friends. I am very loyal to those that I do consider friends and I expect the same in return.
* I have been told:
~~~ I'm the type of person who wouldn't show up to my own funeral.
~~~ I could talk myself out of my own religion.
~~~ I'm the leader of fools.

And there is part of me.

This is mostly a friends only journal. Though there is the occasional public update.

hellishwolf is also my journal. Equally as boring, only not updated as often. ;) That one is always open to the public.

And yet another journal of mine - kaliangel. I post all of my poems and dreams I have in that journal. This one is friends only. If you want to read them, all you've got to do is ask! I will most likely add you.

stormyhell is another one of my journals. I don't hardly update that one at all. It was originally created for those who wanted to read my journal, but too lazy to create a journal of their own. I'm currently trying to figure out what I want to do with that journal.

Recently I created the community againstslaughtr. It is a community for those who are against the slaughtering of America's horses for food consumption overseas. I urge anyone who is against slaughter to join.

Hey look! Another journal: angelsita. That journal is for anything related to race horses or horse racing. Basically it's a place for me to put everything I have ever gathered, and continue to gather, in one place. There will also be more indepth coverage of the Road to the Roses and Road to the World Thoroughbred Championships every year there.